Stepping out of the usual haikus and short poems, I wanted to get something out into the world. I was recently given advice I am not going to take. It was given with the best of intentions and with a giving heart, but it was inherently wrong for someone like me. You see, I am... Continue Reading →
Stepping out of Poetryville for a brief moment as I find myself looking at 30 days of sobriety. I still want a drink so much it eats away at my most inner being; that's how strong a grip it still has on me. But; when you start to become someone that you aren't when you... Continue Reading →
THIS IS THE WORST! EVERYTHING SUCKS!!! No, in all seriousness.... EVERYTHING SUCKS!! It's a THREE DAY WEEKEND and I can't have a DRINK! I can't Relax for TWO SECONDS without the kids screaming abut their GAMING CRAP! I can't HAVE A DRINK! I JUST SIT AND LISTEN TO MY FOUNTAIN, AND SMELL MY INCENSE, AND... Continue Reading →
The night comes I miss the darkness... Of when I could numb my soul Against the blinding reality of responsibility. The darkness beckons... And I feel the siren call of yearning to be numb To become as one wrapped and cocooned In a blanket of contentment. The darkness touches me... It taps me on the... Continue Reading →
Good morning dear reader. The engine doth roar again, and the eyes doth pop wide open with ideas on new and interesting things I just have to write...and right now. I can see two things now very clearly; When you stop one habit, you pick up another that takes its place and that can, when... Continue Reading →
It’s late and dark and the time is mine alone now… I’ve earned this right, this right to drink my fine, sweet wine haven’t I? I worked a job most people won’t work and survived… That’s worthy of a drink right? Of course it is… And the first blindfold wraps around my eyes…. I am... Continue Reading →
She was out of town… Away and far aflung and it was the Summer-- The new plague ran rampant across the land of fear; And I went back to the playpen of denial I her absence…. Free to be a child again to “deal” with the fear-- …and tuning out the world. For a whole... Continue Reading →
I turned my key in the lock And opened the door to fall into hell. Once more….with feeling. The work day, full of it’s shrieks and thrashing had begat once again a satin night of drunken mindlessness… And I ran to it with opened arms. “Abandon All Hope”. Indeed. I slunk along the baseboards and... Continue Reading →
Today..the world let go of me; and reality became as broken glass. Threads worn bare by endless stress and self destruction appeared at last And—in an instant, I found the world to be a rug that had worn out And I fell through a hole I hard worn through pacing and Struggling in anguish with... Continue Reading →
I took my first cup of coffee just now, The first of many… I have to have a lot Because I am in another day That I am required to serve my kids And their families And It’s nearly impossible…. I took my second cup of coffee just now, The second of more that will... Continue Reading →
Looking up at the ceiling… It’s dark; my head hurts How did I get here? I was just standing up for Christ’s sake Now I’m down here…. And I can’t move Looking around… My wife’s laying asleep just feet away Thank God the door is closed Or she would once again See me like this…and... Continue Reading →
Anger spits out Like venom from a viper’s maw… You can’t be in my life anymore… You can’t give me your love again… And I can’t enjoy your embrace… Anymore….. Rage shakes a hammer at the glass of my soul… It shatters it into a million pieces and sees me on the floor You can’t... Continue Reading →
