Entered the classroom today and suited up for the big test; strapped in and accelerated myself into the mental wall marked with a bullseye labeled "INSERT STRESS LEVEL HERE" to face the daily, shattering, battle against the storm; I excelled at my job too, by crashing into that barrier without my restraints in place; to... Continue Reading →
Going back to work after a breakdown is the worst. Everyone cheers you on, and slaps you on the back, and says "I'm SO glad you're OK now....like you were cured of leprosy of something. They then begin walking around treating you like you were made of lace or china and keep you at arms... Continue Reading →
"Enough Dammit!" I finally say; after days upon DAYS of worry and doubt and anxiety-- Tomorrow I return to teach the Special friends I instruct each day -- and I do so with my whole heart exposed, as I am physically and mentally now, to so much; not only with risk of infection, and with... Continue Reading →
Today I wake early..as in most… Blearily, I struggle out to take up coffee and a lance that has seen it’s days… Oh, how it has seen it’s days. I carry it with me now In ways I can’t say how I manage to lift it And point it At windmills. It’s weight is heavy... Continue Reading →
Everyone I know, especially we who teach, know what Monday means. Monday is when the cogs starts turning.... It means, one more day of holding on and trying to stay upright with a smile stapled to your face and to march, as soldiers, to a classroom that has become a minefield It means, another 5... Continue Reading →
Another morning comes And I shift my thoughts to entering Into battle…into the scrape, The screaming, maddening, rage of chaos And it’s crushing me “Bless you for all you do” , they say… They have no idea what I do— They don’t know the draining, ceaseless torrent Of waiting for the next tantrum Or the... Continue Reading →
