The barred doors of the cell of the past and the misunderstood assumptions present in the ones close to the heart insure the cell of the future is to be a sentence of life; For the crimes of memory and resentment is a prison and offers no escape and no parole, And the key is... Continue Reading →
They opened doors, to home naked pies and a gentle smile. They were there to greet me and smile with a crystal grin promising a love beyond measure, and leaving a world of troubles behind ...at least for a small time. She lived behind those glass jewels, and made her home in my heart. She... Continue Reading →
I find a shield against the world and it's darkness, in the shining silver on my finger-- a suit of armor within a band of devotion and a promise to be kept. As a circle has no end, as a road walked beside a friend, as a life that I will spend-- within its' glimmer... Continue Reading →
Today I will keep myself in line, I tell myself that I'll be fine But truth, in that, is not all true Because I disappointed you.
Oh how the garden grew once; When it was young and new and green, It blossomed and sprang with life. Nothing was impossible for it, no withering plant nor invasive pest could come against it's strength and beauty. The gardener was always tending to it's needs and giving it fresh water and the precious time... Continue Reading →
A new sunrise begins to wake the stillness and blackness of the night that has enclosed my heart; the crisp, new morning air breathes life back into a soul that had ceased to breathe; and the first birdsong of the morning... unlocks my mind, clearing now, after months of despair into a day, at last,... Continue Reading →
My soul has been screaming for days upon end; It shall not stop. Just like the unrequited spirits who stir and moan and rage in their helpless state; too late to change and too late to make amends... The Banshee that dwells in my soul will wail and wail in it's justified torment until it's... Continue Reading →
I lay awake in the dark of a love I've ruined, Knowing I've lost that special, little piece of your heart that makes a life together special. It exists somehwere behind walls I've built through mistakes and selfishness-- forever beyond my reach--and from my wreckage.
She's build a castle around her heart; A castle made of the stones I've thrown at her over the years she's wasted with me. Rocks I carved with my stupidity and ignorance It's always all about me, you see.... The rocks.. The stones carved with the words: Carelessness, Callousness, and Selfish ego. And so many... Continue Reading →
A friend came to me in my suffering, noticing me on my knees in pain-- afraid and helpless and writhing in the grip of fear; he took my shoulders with his mighty hands and said to me " Be strong, we have you" And one cloud that had been covering the sun fell away; Another... Continue Reading →
Once again, my day became a cacophony of the screams of children with inner demons and of the fight to calm them to safety; Once again, I walked that tightrope between calm and chaos, expecting it to break at anytime but instead seeing it sag and bend towards oblivion; All I needed was a kind... Continue Reading →
I sit and write to no one except myself; Although you are near, your cold, frozen, indifference has built a wall of sheerest ice between our souls and there is no gate or road around it-- only a chasm we cannot cross.
Short but sweet… A man’s heart lies in a lot of places; it lies in work, it lies in devotion to family, it lies in duty, and it lies….period. It lies when it says he doesn’t need to be touched or “it’s ok; I’m not in the mood either”… when in fact, he very much... Continue Reading →
Weeks went by; Moments too slow to number…. Moments that piled up with memories of shouts and pain; Listening to the endless failures he had committed Enduring humiliation upon shame… And stepping in to keep his child from another beating. Days went by… Hours too slow to number… Where he lay awake and planned and... Continue Reading →
I Was Not His He lay there in that flowered room And drew his breath, raspy and gasping…trying to draw his breath; Like an old garden gate about to fall from it’s hinges… …I was not his But I sat in the Hospice room And watched over him… Because he was mine. I sat and... Continue Reading →
There are paths through the forest; They wind and crawl and, sometimes, hide behind themselves… Twisting and beckoning towards a place where they either vanish; Or lead to a solid wall…. …A wall covered in words that read “regrets”. There are times in the forest; They curl and drag All the while speeding the rust... Continue Reading →
Hooray. Another sunset. Where others might draw wonder or see splendor, I see the rise of a dark blanket… A harbinger of another day of fear and gnashing struggle. The dark is kind, though… In it I can wrap myself and embrace the numbness That lasts, and tastes, sweet-- like the touch of a lover... Continue Reading →
We used to hold hands together, You and I, There was a spark between us; an electricity…. Now those hands are held as fists, And that spark has gone Except to cause an explosion. It’s all my fault, you see. I tried—God knows, I did; I didn’t know what else to Do to get my... Continue Reading →