The barred doors of the cell of the past and the misunderstood assumptions present in the ones close to the heart insure the cell of the future is to be a sentence of life; For the crimes of memory and resentment is a prison and offers no escape and no parole, And the key is... Continue Reading →
Day 16 in recovery begins. Good Lord Baby Jesus in Heaven I wanted a drink last night. I know I sound like a pathetic lush, but this is tough people. Recover, to me, is like wearing a suit that fits too tightly for you and the sleeves make it hard to lift your arms but... Continue Reading →
"Everything Sucks. Leave me alone, please" https://travelwithintent.com/2020/10/17/are-you-living-on-barbed-wire/
Today I will keep myself in line, I tell myself that I'll be fine But truth, in that, is not all true Because I disappointed you.
The sails of the ship that propel my soul long to be filled with the wind of hope, only to hang useless and empty with the doldrums of hopelessness. https://en.support.wordpress.com/comments/pingbacks/
Silence is a wall, Too high to climb over Too thick to break through Built between two who used to be one.
I sit in the glow of the monitor, dredging out my soul and my mind of the layers of sediment that have deposited by the stream of the week. On this day, the road changed, and, out of a time where things appeared bright and the sun had just started to shine through the clouds,... Continue Reading →
Oh how the garden grew once; When it was young and new and green, It blossomed and sprang with life. Nothing was impossible for it, no withering plant nor invasive pest could come against it's strength and beauty. The gardener was always tending to it's needs and giving it fresh water and the precious time... Continue Reading →
A new sunrise begins to wake the stillness and blackness of the night that has enclosed my heart; the crisp, new morning air breathes life back into a soul that had ceased to breathe; and the first birdsong of the morning... unlocks my mind, clearing now, after months of despair into a day, at last,... Continue Reading →
My soul has been screaming for days upon end; It shall not stop. Just like the unrequited spirits who stir and moan and rage in their helpless state; too late to change and too late to make amends... The Banshee that dwells in my soul will wail and wail in it's justified torment until it's... Continue Reading →
I lay awake in the dark of a love I've ruined, Knowing I've lost that special, little piece of your heart that makes a life together special. It exists somehwere behind walls I've built through mistakes and selfishness-- forever beyond my reach--and from my wreckage.
She's build a castle around her heart; A castle made of the stones I've thrown at her over the years she's wasted with me. Rocks I carved with my stupidity and ignorance It's always all about me, you see.... The rocks.. The stones carved with the words: Carelessness, Callousness, and Selfish ego. And so many... Continue Reading →
The cold oustide today, crisp, and damp and sullen as my heart; is as a balmy desert when compared to the deluge of raindrops that fill my soul with a flood of tears.
I figured that since I can't sleep anyway, I might as well be up writing as opposed to just laying there thinking of things to be writing. This has been a brutal week. The work itself has been constant stress and waiting for the next shoe to drop, especially with one student who gets so... Continue Reading →
As a boy, I would search through his dresser; hoping to find some surprise tucked away that he was holding onto for a special reason, or just because I wanted to be like him-- and know what it was to be a man. On a particular day, I came across a wooden box. I had... Continue Reading →
She waited for him to get home from work; She had stored up all her energy to rail against him for yet another lie; The toxic fire exploding in her heart.. he hadn't the trash out --again. He was supposed to you know.. She asked so little yet gave so much; Lazy bastard
I stepped out on the porch to drink in the coolness of an evening that I wish had been warmer between us; The air met me with a crisp kiss and the plants that surrounded me and reached out as if in understanding of my lonely need for someone to say Hello
Once again, my day became a cacophony of the screams of children with inner demons and of the fight to calm them to safety; Once again, I walked that tightrope between calm and chaos, expecting it to break at anytime but instead seeing it sag and bend towards oblivion; All I needed was a kind... Continue Reading →
I sit and write to no one except myself; Although you are near, your cold, frozen, indifference has built a wall of sheerest ice between our souls and there is no gate or road around it-- only a chasm we cannot cross.